I’m constantly asked, “Why aren’t you happy?”

I wrote an article about my depression before, but it’s gotten worse as the years have gone by.

When I was diagnosed with depression, I was 16, which was two years ago. I had it for many years before that but never would become brave enough to tell someone.

Finally, my mom noticed I wasn’t the same Bailey I once was.

I never told anyone about my depression because honestly I was embarrassed. How can a 16-year-old girl who was always so happy and bubbly become so depressed?

How could I, the girl who made every one laugh and make their day better, become so depressed that all I ever did was stay in room?

Depression isn’t being sad.

Depression just doesn’t take control of your mood, but also your thoughts, what you eat, when you eat, and your sleeping habits.

Many people think it’s all in our head, but if that were the case, wouldn’t everyone with depression stop and be happy?

Unfortunately, it’s a disorder many people are diagnosed with.

You never know, you could wake up tomorrow and become diagnosed. Depression is one of the hardest struggles I’ve had to deal with.

Many people have mood swings, but I can switch in a second.

The only time I am completely sane is around my nephews, Bennett and Everett.

They keep me on my feet and this smile on my face.

The relationship between my mother and me has changed tremendously due to my diagnosis.

Constant arguments, crying, yelling, locking myself in my room, blaring my music and hiding under the covers is what depression has done to me.

If you aren’t suffering from depression, cherish every second of it.

Cherish every second of your happy moments. I know I wish I had more of them.